Necessary Maintenance

January 31, 2018 Justin Peter Gudel

I had to take down portions of my website for the past few days.  PunkChiridion is sadly not my full-time job.  It’s a passion project, which I’ve been told, needs to exist.  So I do it while I also work, live, love, and play.

And at the beginning of last week, I had to take it down.

But this was healthy.  This was good.  This was tov.  A friend of mine, Henry (who is also a pastor), describes how tov or the word that we usually translate from the Old Testament as ‘good’ has an included connotation of multiplication.   

Taking down the website, allowed me to make changes.  It allowed me to make the space bigger, better, and more than it was.  The act was good.  

Last week—with my chest clenched into a ball—I realized that the idea of taking down my content was making me anxious.  Struggling with that fear and the reality that it was necessary, I reminded myself of PunkChiridion’s desires.  Namely, to create conversations about evangelism.  Here’s the thing, I don’t want to be that guy.  I don’t want to be the evangelist on the street corner who wears a sandwich-board proclaiming that the sky is falling.

I talk about evangelism because it needs to be talked about.  I have had paid church jobs for three different congregations.  At some point in each position I’ve had a conversation that mimics the following lines:

ME:  I think it’s important that we do something about evangelism.

HEAD PASTOR:  That’s interesting/good.

M:  I don’t want to do it.  But it needs to be done.

HP:  That makes sense, blaaa blah blah.

M:  I’m willing to do it if I have to.

HP:  That makes sense, blaaa blah blah.

M:  But I don’t want to.

HP:  That makes sense, blaaa blah blah.

M:  I’m willing to do it if I have to.

HP:  That makes sense, blaaa blah blah.

M:  But I don’t want to.

Those conversations were cyclical, and I realized, spoke to something buried inside of me.

Even if I don’t want to be an evangelist (something anyone can be), or the person asking why we aren’t doing any—it’s something the church desperately needs.  It’s tov.  Similar to how I needed to pull down the website.

So today, I ask you, what do you need to do?  What do you need to do for growth?  What do you need to do, for multiplication in your life?